You know that I want your loving,
But my logic tells me that it ain’t never gonna happen,
And then my defenses say I did’t want it anyway.
But you know sometimes I’m a liar…
Could you ever want me to love you?
Could you ever want me to care?
Disregard my nervousness, please ignore my vacant stares,
‘Cause just what I’ve been thru is nothing like where I’m going to.
Give me some sign to pursue a promise…
And you’re unhappy — this is only a guess.
Do you know what it’s like to hate when it’s way down deep inside?
Oh, God, I hate what’s been done to my life…
I could rule the pain, I could rule the night,
Or would I ruin my salvation?
Ruin my mind, rules your pains, rulers of the night,
Ruin your salvation, ruin your mind…